The Year Coming to a Close

As the year comes to a close, I normally find myself dwelling on what I did wrong and what I hope to do better in the new year, but as this year closes I don’t have time for that.

I am in the process of cleaning up and prepping for our New Year’s Eve fondue party. I think it started when we bought the house but I’ve lost track of the number of years we have had the party. It started out just me and my hubby, then his brother came and now this year and last we also had his parents and one of his sisters.

What makes this year a little more difficult is that I made a choice. I’m not eating it. I’m on an eating plan that I don’t want to diverge from. When I think about diverging it stresses me out. I know they always say you can save up and have treat days and that you should celebrate special occassions but why do those celebrations always involve food?

And they always involve food and there are too many. I can think right now of tonight, then Christmas, then my husband was on vacation, then I had Thanksgiving, then people visiting, then anniversarry. That is only going in reverse. If I go forward I have tonight, then residency, then valentine’s day and my birthday and so on and so on. So see? When I give up on myself and give in to another “celebration” I continue in the cycle of losing like 5 pounds then gaining 2 and back and forth. I’m so tired of that.

So as I end the year I am changing my opinions before that little ball drops. And lets hope it isn’t a little ball of chocolate

Happy New Year everyone. I toast you with my diet coke and 94% fat free popcorn.